Less than 24 Hours

Today I was scheduled to go in for my ultrasound this morning at 8am. It was quick- not so painless, but that's ok. I know Baby Shirkey will be worth the pain (mentally, physically and emotionally), discomfort and waiting as we go through this journey. The USG girl was very sweet- I liked her a lot. As she was scanning me, we got to talking about my job and her job and how they relate so well. She did a good job at keeping my mind off the pressure I was feeling and the nervousness I had. I told her this was our first time at doing this and how I wasn't sure about everything that would be done and how we would move forward. She explained everything well and later stated that everything "looked beautiful" on the inside. She said I had some good follicles present in both ovaries, which was reassuring.
So, tomorrow is the BIG day! I am so nervous. My stomach has been un-easy all day- I think because of what's to come- the knowing and the unknowing... I constantly remind myself how God is the ultimate giver of life. Not only physically, as in a new baby, but spiritually as well- as in the giver of eternal life. And I am EVER SO GRATEFUL for this amazing, wonderful gift. I was just reminded this week of the story of Jacob and Rachel in the Bible. Genesis 30:1 says: 'When Rachel saw she was not bearing Jacob any children, she became jealous of her sister (Leah). So she said to Jacob, "Give me children, or I'll die!" ' As my Sunday School class was studying our lesson, our teacher went over this small part of scripture. He stated that as he was preparing for our lesson that day, he couldn't help but think of the struggle our class is having with infertility. As he said all that, he then read off a scripture that he wanted us all to cling to in difficult times- whether it be infertility, marital problems, financial issues, etc... he read aloud John 6:35, which says: 'Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty." My teacher reminded us that no matter what we are facing, JESUS is ALL sustaining! He will never fail us; He is more than we will EVER need- no matter what life throws our way!
I was also doing some Bible reading today and came across this verse which I find uplifting during this time in my life. Mark 11:24, Jesus says: "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and will be yours."
I found this encouraging, especially knowing what this week could possibly hold for Eric and I. I am holding this scripture close to heart. Regardless of how this may all turn out, I MUST remember, Jesus is the giver, He is the sustainer. I must turn to Him.
We are scheduled for 12:45 tomorrow. I had to give myself an injection this afternoon, 24 hours away from the time we will inseminate. This is to assist in helping the follicles mature and trigger the release of mature eggs. Of course, no one was here to do it for me (and Eric refused to stick me with a needle), so I had to myself. As the saying goes- 'there is a first time for everything.'  :) The shot itself was painless. I am feeling now where I stuck the needle, but overall, it was nothing!

Picture of my shot (again, I want this for memories) :)

Please say big prayers tomorrow! We are very, very excited, but very, very nervous and anxious at the same time! How cool would it be to find out at the holidays we are finally pregnant and having a baby!? Fingers crossed! The procedure will be done and then we will wait...once again.