A Post from a Friend

A friend of mine had posted this on her Facebook a couple of days ago...it was so real to me. I couldn't help but re-post here on my blog- she said it all so well... I have so many mixed feelings these days and as she states; it is quite difficult coming out publicly with our fertility struggle, so I just wanted to post this (also where I can come back one day and read this again to see what God has done for us and our family.)

There are so many people out there who don't even think of the pain and anguish that comes with infertility and wanting to conceive. Most people think you fall in love, you get married, you begin your family and live happily ever after. However, for so many couples (more than most people think), this is not the case. It's not that simple. I read friends posts and listen quietly as strangers, friends and acquaintances complain of their pregnancy discomforts and the agonizing cries of their newborns while wanting rest- I however, would give anything in the world to experience those discomforts, pains and the crying of a newborn baby...

 

And now to my friends post- this is how I WILL make it through this! Thanks friend! :)

 

 

I think it's important that everyone knows that it isn't easy being public with my fertility problems... I put updates on here because we have many friends and family around the country that want to know what's going on in our journey. And I also think it's important that everyone knows that without trusting God I wouldn't even know how to deal with all of this. I trust that God has us on this journey for a reason... I trust that this is the path He is leading us down. I trust that he is holding our first child in His arms in heaven awaiting our arrival. I trust that on days like today where I'm so depressed all I want to do is lay in bed and cry over how inadequate I feel as a woman, that He gives me strength to go on with my daily life/work and do everything I need to do. I trust that He gives me strength to stay calm when people give unwanted ideas that they see as harmless advice. I trust that God will let us be parents one day. I THANK God everyday that my husband loves me whether I can give him children or not. I trust that God gives doctors the means to help people like me whose bodies don't function properly. I trust that the hours and hours that I spend praying about this are heard. I trust that God knows the desires of our hearts and will fulfill His promises in his time. And most of all... I trust that He will help give us peace and understanding with every passing disappointing month. Without this trust... without my faith in God, I have nothing. And I wouldn't be able to take the heart wrenching disappointment that comes with pregnancy loss and infertility.